have you ever placed so much hope on a dream u hope to achieve, wishing it would come true and u would fufil it? Then when u finally experience it, it is not what u expect at all.

 

many a times, we then to go into somthing without thinking of the consequences. 

 

 

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

 

 

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

 

someday, i wish i could

[ ► the laughter, ▌▌ the memories, █▌ the pain, ◄◄ the happiness. ]

 

Life Is So Beautiful, But So Fragile

 

Every breath counts, every moment matters. 

 Life is God's gift to our planet. 

A lifetime is not enough for us to know ourselves. 

Yet we waste time in perverse pleasures, unmindful of our own beauty. 

If you are not living your life to the fullest, you are missing something.

this is not the 1st time..

it has been countless times where me, my mum and sister has recieved verbal and physical violent abuses from my brother.
my brother has anger management inability. he cannot control his anger and will resort to grusome ways to get what he wants.


He, my brother is violent and abusive. He used to spanner to tear down my door and kicked my stomach when i was minding my own business. Whenever he is bored, he will lock himself in my parents room and play DOTA. Even several hard knocks from me, my mum and sis will not be able to open it.

and the best part is that he believes in GOD. but why is he still doing this? It totally killed my belief in christianity the moment he does all this things to me.

After today, i no longer will believe in anything my brother says and does. I have long given up on him and everytime i try to talk to him, he will spit back negative remarks and comments that either hurts me and as much as i want to continue on, the attitude that he gives me totally puts me off and i give up talking to him totally.

I used to wish that i had a brother who i will love and who love me too. In this way, there would be less quarrels and whatever we did, we would have each other for protection and trust. However, I have since treated my brother like a ghost, that he is a haunting that would forever haunt us, till the time i move out and live in my own house.

my only hope is that i wish he would grow up and be nicer to my family soon.
 If I wrote a note to God, I would speak what's in my soul
if i wrote a note to god, i'll pour all my heart out on each page
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue
And it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on








this is my new song for my blog and its repeating in my head everytime i think of her.
Just a young philipino girl...with such a big heart and big vocals
i applaud her from the bottom of my heart..
she wins all the major singers hands down
her voice is not only soothing but a sense of power and pride.

the song is called "Note to God"
and it explains my current emotions, thoughts and life now.
i wanna share it with everyone
and in the event that i dun blog on christmas,
a MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance! <3 to all readers
may 2009 leave you with happy memories and
2010 come with abundant opportunities for u to sore!

signing off xoxo
yenxi
home is any four walls that enclose the right person.

with so many happening revolving around me recently, these holidays, i am going to be spending my time mostly at home, because i love my home. I have came to realise that there is so much things one can do in the house. last holidays, i got bored of home very fast and always want to go out. but every where i went, it was to the same pace and u have to spend money and time to travel there. why not stay at home and cook, watch tv and let urself run lose? you can close the curtains and blast the music and dance around with total privacy( except your family members maybe).

maybe because im a homebody and have quietened down from my wild side. Life is not about going out everyday, partying and having fun. Life is also about living simply, enough to content your heart and your soul.

 ok the end of my short update to revive my blog that seems so dead. all of the other events im too lazy to blog i've kind of lost my blogging mood and will update when i have something to share.
i played with fire. 
it got bigger and bigger
and i got burnt
badly
emotionally
all for good fun.


i was planning to weave a scarf
weave weave weave
entangle entangle entangle
in the end
it all come into a big knot
unable to sort itself out

i went to the graveyard
and dig a hole
i fell in
unable to get myself out



i played with fire and got burnt
i weaved a scarf and got entangled 
i dugged my own grave


yenxi, you're great. u invited trouble, u spelled out trouble yourself 
this is gonna take a while to die down
hope i would not ever get invoved in this stupid game anymore to do this forfeit 

so long ,
yenxi



 

 have you ever placed so much hope on a dream u hope to achieve, wishing it would come true and u would fufil it? Then when u finally experience it, it is not what u expect at all.

 

many a times, we then to go into somthing without thinking of the consequences. 

 

 

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

 

 

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

 

someday, i wish i could

[ ► the laughter, ▌▌ the memories, █▌ the pain, ◄◄ the happiness. ]

 

Life Is So Beautiful, But So Fragile

 

Every breath counts, every moment matters. 

 Life is God's gift to our planet. 

A lifetime is not enough for us to know ourselves. 

Yet we waste time in perverse pleasures, unmindful of our own beauty. 

If you are not living your life to the fullest, you are missing something.

this is not the 1st time..

it has been countless times where me, my mum and sister has recieved verbal and physical violent abuses from my brother.
my brother has anger management inability. he cannot control his anger and will resort to grusome ways to get what he wants.


He, my brother is violent and abusive. He used to spanner to tear down my door and kicked my stomach when i was minding my own business. Whenever he is bored, he will lock himself in my parents room and play DOTA. Even several hard knocks from me, my mum and sis will not be able to open it.

and the best part is that he believes in GOD. but why is he still doing this? It totally killed my belief in christianity the moment he does all this things to me.

After today, i no longer will believe in anything my brother says and does. I have long given up on him and everytime i try to talk to him, he will spit back negative remarks and comments that either hurts me and as much as i want to continue on, the attitude that he gives me totally puts me off and i give up talking to him totally.

I used to wish that i had a brother who i will love and who love me too. In this way, there would be less quarrels and whatever we did, we would have each other for protection and trust. However, I have since treated my brother like a ghost, that he is a haunting that would forever haunt us, till the time i move out and live in my own house.

my only hope is that i wish he would grow up and be nicer to my family soon.
 If I wrote a note to God, I would speak what's in my soul
if i wrote a note to god, i'll pour all my heart out on each page
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue
And it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on








this is my new song for my blog and its repeating in my head everytime i think of her.
Just a young philipino girl...with such a big heart and big vocals
i applaud her from the bottom of my heart..
she wins all the major singers hands down
her voice is not only soothing but a sense of power and pride.

the song is called "Note to God"
and it explains my current emotions, thoughts and life now.
i wanna share it with everyone
and in the event that i dun blog on christmas,
a MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance! <3 to all readers
may 2009 leave you with happy memories and
2010 come with abundant opportunities for u to sore!

signing off xoxo
yenxi
home is any four walls that enclose the right person.

with so many happening revolving around me recently, these holidays, i am going to be spending my time mostly at home, because i love my home. I have came to realise that there is so much things one can do in the house. last holidays, i got bored of home very fast and always want to go out. but every where i went, it was to the same pace and u have to spend money and time to travel there. why not stay at home and cook, watch tv and let urself run lose? you can close the curtains and blast the music and dance around with total privacy( except your family members maybe).

maybe because im a homebody and have quietened down from my wild side. Life is not about going out everyday, partying and having fun. Life is also about living simply, enough to content your heart and your soul.

 ok the end of my short update to revive my blog that seems so dead. all of the other events im too lazy to blog i've kind of lost my blogging mood and will update when i have something to share.
i played with fire. 
it got bigger and bigger
and i got burnt
badly
emotionally
all for good fun.


i was planning to weave a scarf
weave weave weave
entangle entangle entangle
in the end
it all come into a big knot
unable to sort itself out

i went to the graveyard
and dig a hole
i fell in
unable to get myself out



i played with fire and got burnt
i weaved a scarf and got entangled 
i dugged my own grave


yenxi, you're great. u invited trouble, u spelled out trouble yourself 
this is gonna take a while to die down
hope i would not ever get invoved in this stupid game anymore to do this forfeit 

so long ,
yenxi